Welcome to Finding Frequency!
I’ve been thinking long and hard about the perfect way to start this newsletter. A perfect post to kick start this relationship between you and I.
A perfect essay to let you know about who I am, what I do and what this newsletter will be about.
Why?
Because I want our relationship to begin with honesty and trust.
And after scratching off multiple drafts, I thought what better way than to let you in on a confession about me and this newsletter.
So, here we go.
I started this newsletter on 06 May 2023.
How do I remember that?
Well, I recorded myself on Snapchat, jumping with joy and excitement after creating this. I went back and looked at the date yesterday.
And I realized it has been two years and I haven’t published a single piece so far.
The reason being?
Because life happened. (No, not really)
Immediately after starting my newsletter back in 2023, I found things which then caught my attention and I channelized my energy there.
First, YouTube & Content Creation
I started a cricket analysis YouTube channel. I devoted my time and energy for a good six months and realized it’s not what I wanted to do.
I know what exactly you’re thinking. “Giving up in just six months? You should have actually kept going. Ever heard of hockey stick growth?”
Your points are valid. But I have a theory for it. And I’ll explain in the coming posts. For now, let’s stay on the timeline.
India lost the ICC 2023 Cricket World Cup. I was burnt out with the content creation and travelling for good 2-3 months.
Bad Experience with Freelancing
Then I picked up something new - video editing.
I landed my first client - someone whom I’ve looked up to on the internet since 2018, when he hardly had 1000 Instagram followers (he has 1.3 million now). We’ve interacted at various junctures in the past 6-7 years.
I reached out to him and we eventually agreed on a deal - to create IG reels/clips for him from his different podcasts and interviews and his YouTube channel.
I created around 95+ clips in a month for this guy. He started posting them on Instagram. The reels got really good traction. We were in constant communication. And when it was time for payment, he started avoiding me.
Weird, I thought.
He kept ignoring me. I kept sending texts. He never got back. [As of writing, he still hasn’t replied]. I was stunned. I was at a loss for words. Never thought that someone like him, whom I’ve known since 2018, when he was a nobody, would do this to me.
I was dejected. I was vexed. I was irate, at myself, as to how I blindly trusted his word and never saw this coming.
Yes, I did not get him to sign a contract. I know! Rookie mistake.
That whole experience again burnt me out. Pissed me off. And I decided “no more of this.”
I needed a break. Again.
My First Marathon
It was during this break, I got into running seriously and started training for a marathon. Now, all my energy went there. I completed my first ever marathon. Running a marathon completely changes you. And it was arguably the greatest moment of my life so far.
I got a promotion at work. Work started piling up.
Falling in Love
Then, I met someone special. Fell in love. It was the most beautiful feeling in the world. Being in love changes your whole outlook on life, man. It’s precious, delicate, intimate. And then, I also had a heartbreak. We split. I had to deal with the wounds of this soul-crushing part of my life.
There were so many other things that happened as well, in the past two years.
First Tryst with Death as an Adult
I lost my uncle, someone who was extremely close to my heart. For the first time I was shaken by death. I always thought death would never scare me. But I felt fragile when this happened. I felt naked when confronted with that reality. As an adult, that was my first tryst with death. I’ve journaled a lot on this experience and it’s something I will be sharing in the upcoming posts.
Kheerganga Trek
I did my first trek - the Kheerganga Trek - in February 2025. I saw snowfall for the first time. I travelled alone. Tons of new experiences that shaped me. More on that later as well.
A Fresh Start
Fast forward, it’s May 2025.
Is this a coincidence that I decided to jump back to writing and we’re literally 2 years apart?
Maybe. Maybe not. I have no idea.
But here’s the thing.
Throughout this whole period, I’ve always wanted to write. There was this insatiable urge in me to write and publish. I used to write meticulously in 2021 and 2022. And then I stopped.
Not writing and publishing ate me alive.
I was yearning for that feeling again because it’s when I found myself living in alignment with my highest version. When I wrote, I felt the closest to me. And it's something I feel only the writers will know and understand.
A very close friend of mine once said this to me when I first showed her my blogs.
She said:
“Please keep writing. You’re gifted… Don't ever stop writing. You wouldn’t know who’ll get inspired tomorrow. Words are powerful.”
If you’re reading this, thank you for the inspiration.
Writing has been one of my muses. It gives me joy. Writing is not just putting a few words on a blank screen. Writing is understanding for me. It is therapy. Writing is both meditation and an escape, for me.
In the past two years, I’ve written so much in my journals, and in the past 6 months alone, I’ve finished 2 journals XD (humble brag?). Writing has been an outlet of expression.
So here I am. Starting again. This time, to actually keep going, with consistency.
That said, welcome to my Substack - Finding Frequency.
Who am I?
Glad you asked.
I’m Santosh.
For the first 22 years of my life, I chased my dream of becoming a professional cricketer and representing India. I gave my blood, sweat and tears to that chase.
And I fell short. By miles.
But I picked up so many invaluable lessons along the way. So, there’s that.
As of writing, I’m a sports journalist by profession.
I like to read, run, walk and travel.
I’m curious about almost anything and everything.
I only use Twitter (come say hi!). I deleted my Instagram in August 2024 and it has been the best decision!
I'll be turning 25 soon. Kind of feeling overwhelmed. It’s that age where you’re questioning everything in your life. But it’s fine.
That’s exactly what Finding Frequency is about. I will be documenting everything here.
If' you’ve come till here, thank you very much for taking interest in reading this post and spending your valuable time.
Truly inspiring to see u grow thru every speedbreaker on ur way and aceing with every move ahead